Day 16

This second full week has gone fairly well. Other than my obsession with the scale which I am not letting happen again this week, and lack of exercise (again) I can say I have been faithful to being cautious about what foods I allow to fuel me. I continue to need much prayer and reminder that this is what this is all about. It's time to stop thinking of food as something to comfort me or something for pure pleasure. Food is something that makes our bodies work. It only needs food that makes your body healthy. This is a very hard concept for me to grasp and one I must continually remind myself of. It is a journey, I won't get it right the first time every time. So while weight loss I know will be a result of this journey it is not the ultimate goal. To be healthy, to not let food rule me (or the scale), to dare I say, not worship food is the ultimate goal.

So, Sunday almost as soon as I posted that the first week had been fabulous, it hit me. A headache that lasted for four days and a very nauseated stomach. My body was definitely rejecting the changes I was making. But I am happy to say I did not give in. Well except for that one time I had dinner with a friend and we decided to go for custard, but I think that's allowed every now and then :) I kept it small and only ate what I wanted of it. I honestly still do not crave sweet things. Even on the night I had dinner out I managed to stay under calorie goal, by 8 calories, but I made it! I think after I tackle sweets for a month I will begin to tackle another something to enhance the journey. Not sure what that something will be quite yet, but I do know what it will not be... carbs, That is a battle I believe I will have to face but that is just too much good stuff too much too soon. Working out should probably be my next goal, since I'm still pretty much a failure when it comes to them. Currently my workouts are still basically nonexistent. I did do some serious cleaning this week and some garden work that I think counted for something. For now my goal is to just move more and it's working. I know once I start working out I will not stop. I love working out, I don't know why it's so hard to get started but it is. It's coming, just wait for it.

Then there was the battle with the scale. Last week I switched from a dial scale to a digital scale to weigh in each week. I weighed on both so that I would know what the difference was and where to start this week. But for some reason I found myself getting on the scale every morning. And by Monday the scale had already said I gained 2 pounds! Which is probably why I continued to get on it every morning thereafter. By Saturday morning I had had enough however. I prayed that God would give me the courage to not drag the scale out and step on it. That whatever the scale told me Sunday morning would be fine. That I had stayed on plan all week and no matter what it said I knew my body was healthier this week than last. And He did, He helped me leave it put away and not step back on it until this morning and you want to know what it told me... Not only was I back down the 2 pounds that it told me all week I had gained, but I was down 2 pounds from the week before! So in total so far I have lost 6 pounds. Seems so small when looking at the big picture but I will take every ounce that gets me closer to goal. And I, prayerfully, will not let myself become obsessed with scale ever again. From previous experience, I know this is easier said than done, but I also know I can't let that number rule how I feel about myself.

So here's to week 3. Staying on plan and moving more than the week before!