Empty...

An empty page. That's what it all starts as, just an empty page. Then I try to fill it with words. Words about all kinds of topics. Generally words on whatever God is working on in my heart at the moment. Sometimes words about life in general. I want the words to mean something, even if only to me. I do not want to just put random words on the page for the sole purpose of filling the page. Words mean a lot to me. I love to read and I love music. Both because of their words. 

A song lyric speaking to me right now is from Meredith Andrews latest CD: Worth it all. The song is titled " Start with me" The lyrics are:

You are air to desperate lungs
Water falling on the sand
Silence to an angry storm
Sight to a blind man
You're still the God, a miracle
So if You're gonna move again
Then would You move in me?
Move in me

You're the beat to a broken heart
Bread for a hungry crowd
And one word from Your voice rings out
And the dead throw the grave clothes down
Cause You're still the God of the empty tomb
The one who came alive again
So come alive in me
Come alive in me
Come alive in me
Come alive in me

My life is an empty cup
Fill it up, fill it up!
I wanna hear every rescued heart cry
You're enough, You're enough!
Break what needs breaking
'Til You're all we see
And start with me, start with me

Whose arms hold the fatherless?
Whose voice do they hear?
Who sits with the prisoner
And stands for the one who fear?
You're still the God of what is just
And You're still the God of love
So would You love through me
Love through me yeah
Come and love through me
Would You love through me, yeah

My life is an empty cup
Fill it up, fill it up!
I wanna hear every rescued heart cry
You're enough, You're enough!
Break what needs breaking
'Til You're all we see
And start with me, start with me, yeah

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
Lord let it be
Let it start with me, start with me

Yes, Your kingdom come
And Your will be done
Oh Lord let it be
Let it start with me, start with me

Yeah, start with me, start with me

My life is an empty cup
Fill it up, fill it up!
I wanna hear every rescued heart cry
You're enough, You're enough!
Break what needs breaking
'Til You're all we see
And start with me, start with me,
Yeah start with me, start with me
Yeah

Oh Lord won't you please start with me! My life is an empty cup, please fill it up! These words ring so loud in my heart right now. They will be my prayer every day. And again during the day when I forget my purpose in a moment of allowing myself to become frazzled, I'll empty myself out once again for the Lord! I long to be whatever He desires me to be. I want more Jesus.

But I don't just want to be the girl who continually proclaims Jesus name and my love for Him. I want to be the girl who lives it too. I feel I live it in a lot of ways, but every way?... No.

I want to live it with every word that comes out of my mouth. I want to live it with every action I do. I want to live it with every thought in my mind. I want Jesus to fill me.

So you know what I do? I try to live safe. I try not to venture outside of the box. If you don't go outside of the box, living for Jesus appears very easy to the untrained eye. It's time to step out of the box. It's time to get out of the comfort zone I have created for myself. I have no clue what this means, or looks like. I have no idea where to go or who to talk to. Would you pray with me that God reveal this to me? I am a homebody. I like my comfort. I don't like drama. I don't feel I have an abundance of free time. But I want to live for Jesus. I want to make a difference. I want to use everything He gives me, every single day.

From an empty page I've filled with words, to an empty me I need filled with Jesus. I mean it with all my heart when I sing these words. Start with me... Fill my cup.