However with that approaching round numbered birthday I've been thinking. Things are changing. My body is changing. While most days I still feel very young (as long as I get to bed by around 10pm) I know that I have to start approaching this healthy lifestyle a tad differently.
I've shown you all my progress pic. (If you haven't seen it go take a look here: Progress Pic ) Continual progress is going to get harder, even maintaining is going to get harder as time goes on.
Actually, can I just be really honest here? Two different thought processes are going on in my head.
- I am turning 40 this year. I MUST continue making healthy choices to keep me energized, keep the pounds off, maybe slow down some more wrinkles from forming and fight illness.
- I am turning 40 this year. While I want to be around for another 40, 50, heck, 60 more years, I don't want to count calories and be so rigid all of these years.
I've struggled for quite some time with balance on this journey. I think I had it in the beginning then as pounds became harder to shed the more rigid I became. I don't like rigid me. I like disciplined me, but she is very different than rigid me. I want to re-find the me who chooses healthy MOST of the time, who doesn't "fall off the wagon" because of one poor(er?) choice. I want to find balance. The girl who can make educated choices, eat to fuel, yet enjoy without feeling guilty at times too.
Ultimate Reset was amazing. I felt A-MAZING after completing it. I felt so clean and refreshed, ready to do this again. It was exactly what I needed. It fed the disciplined, yet rigid me. But I needed that in that moment. I needed reminded what I could feel like.
Well, here we are several weeks later and I'm struggling. Struggling with that balance. Struggling with getting rid of the all or nothing thinking I tend to lean towards. So I gave in and agreed to try a new program. I see it working in many people I know. The focus is on changing how you think about food. Changing your relationship with food. There is no calorie, container, or macro counting. The food groups have been simplified. You weigh in daily because the scale is a guide to tell you how the previous day went. Should you repeat that day or no? And drink your water! Sounds simple enough.
I was apprehensive about trying something else, another program, I just want to be "normal". But after more research this may be just what I'm trying to accomplish, a mindset shift. I want to enjoy life, I want to be around and be healthy enough to enjoy life. I don't want food, or calories to control life. If you have never struggled with weight this may seem really silly to you. You may be thinking what a big to do I'm making out of nothing. I hope you never reach a point where your body makes this journey a reality for you. I wish it was a big to do out of nothing. I think well over 90% of people who take on the weight loss journey will tell you that the science of weight loss is simple, it's changing your mindset, the mental aspect of it that makes it difficult. The mental part of the journey is what makes it hard to maintain.
I know with my hypothyroidism and as I do continue to age, the struggle is only going to get more difficult. I'll have more than just the mental struggle working against me. The sooner I can find a balance, the better. Even shifting to maintaining without that being a struggle would be a victory for me.
To make a rather long story short, I'd like to find peace within myself while continuing to strive for being the best me - physically, mentally and of course spiritually.
So come Monday I'm read to start really working on a mind shift. I'm ready to begin educating myself even more about food, trying new foods and letting go of rigid me. I'm ready to bring scripture back to the forefront of this journey, where it belongs. I'm ready to do this!
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