What's Your Type?

Sooo, I'm a little type A... o.k., maybe a lot  type A.

Type A personality defined:
"A temperament characterized by excessive ambition, aggression, competitiveness, drive, impatience, need to control, focus on quantity over quality and unrealistic sense of urgency." (businessdictionary.com)

If we take competitiveness (only in some things), impatience, need for control and unrealistic sense of urgency I think you'd have a fair description of me. Or at least part of me. These things usually seem negative to me, but used in the right way they can be positive too. And I'm very aware they aren't my only qualitites, but they are there and front and center a lot of days.

Due to my type a-ness I like schedules, I like plans, I like to know the next step. I struggle greatly when it comes to going with the flow. Ask anyone who has ever made plans with me. I am however aware of this and I try really hard to be flexible. Some days go better than others. 😊

I also know that to some people this really might not seem like a big deal, however I think it is. I think it's important that I remember I am not, nor will I ever be, the one in control of my life- God is. And God has far greater plans and dreams than I could ever imagine for myself.

When anything seems out of control, not even bad, just uncertain, my mind begins to race, over 100 mph, to find a solution to my non-existent problem. I begin forming solutions that actually aren't solutions at all unless I somehow know the future. I see it as planning. I figure if things work out this way, then I'll have it all mapped out. BUT, if I get thrown a curve ball and this happens, then BOOM, I'm not surprised, I've got options planned for that too.

What a waste of time!

Because you know what happens?

Something like what happened at work this week where I was given the chance at a new role. Something I think I will actually love but would have never agreed to a few months ago. Something I most certainly would not have planned myself.

Now it's God who gets to say BOOM.  He's saying relax, He's got this. I need to stop trying to figure it out and let Him lead.

He reminds me to look back at how far he has lead me so far. He has never once let me go. Never once left me without. Never once left me alone.