Wednesday Weigh In (18) | Wash, Rinse, Repeat

It's a cycle, a vicious cycle, this weight loss thing. I have fought this cycle my entire adult life and probably always will.

This time is different though. I understand I absolutely, positively cannot lose the weight and keep it off without letting Jesus carry the brunt of the load. And every time I ask, He delivers.

Here's the problem however, I get going along doing pretty good and I start to forget that I'm not doing good, Jesus is doing good. Jesus is removing those desires and helping me overcome those temptations. So I quit asking Him to help because in my mind I feel like I'm doing great.

I think we all know what happens next. The cycle, the struggle, the temptation gets hard. Really hard. If I want to think I can do it all by myself. He's going to let me.

The past two weeks I have let other things happening in my life completely overtake my thoughts and my prayers. I had completely lost sight of my weight loss and why it is so important. I stopped asking Jesus for help and handing over the struggles I faced and just tried to deal with them on my own. Spending all of my Jesus time on other things. But if I'm completely honest, I've been avoiding Jesus time like the plague (thankfully He wouldn't always let me). I just didn't want to deal with the issues that He says it's time time to deal with. Things I've pushed down and fought for too long. He wants to bring me freedom from those cycles too and I just keep telling Him I'm not ready.

Then I read this:
"Delayed obedience is disobedience"

Whoa! (In your best Joey Lawrence voice)
I don't get to decide when the right time is.
I don't get to say I agree and say I'm all in... as soon as I'm ready.
I don't get to say we should talk about this more tomorrow.

As a mom if I told Devin to clean his room and he told me he'd get to it when he felt like it. I would immediately make him aware of not only his disobedience but his disrespect.

This is no different. And I'm strangely thankful He's called me on on this. When He says it's time to get the weight off, I should say lead the way. Time to work out, Lord, give me strength. Time to let go, release me. Time to move forward, light my path.

So while I'm well aware the cycle will probably always be there, I'm thankful that when I wander off path a little, He's always waiting, eagerly, to show me how to get back on track. Waiting to show me how to take off the one pound I have gained while I tried to do it myself these last two weeks, and every pound after that as well!

"You are my friends if you do what I command you" John 14:15