Wednesday Weigh In (5)

Can't believe another week has just flown by! I was really dreading the weigh in this morning, I knew I stayed pretty much under my calorie goal all week, but just didn't feel like I always made the healthiest choices I could have. Honestly I dreaded the scale so much this morning I almost didn't get on. How do you become less obsessed with what number shows up on that thing?

I knew I had eaten out twice this past week but had pretty much stuck to the plan otherwise. I also knew however I had still not worked out at all. I had tried to stay active, but I know I need to be more intentional about working out. I still, surprisingly have not craved sweets, this is truly a work of God. 

So on with the weigh in. Funny, or maybe sad, story really. I get on the scale and it shoots me a number, 8 tenths of a pound down. I know this is probably true based on how blah I feel but hop back on in hopes that the scale realizes I have suddenly lost more. It doesn't. So I go move my buttons and somewhat scold myself because I didn't lose more. All while also telling myself that I cannot obsess about the number like this. A loss is a loss and there will be weeks like this. In other words move on. So I go to log my weight in on myfitnesspal.com and it shows my weight from last week and I get a little confused. I must have forgot to put in my last weigh in. If that weight is correct I lost almost 3 pounds this week! I check it out and realize it is right, I did lose almost 3 pounds this week... And I was mad about it! So total weight loss so far is 13 pounds. I am seriously considering weighing in even less to conquer this obsession with the numbers. But truly it is what holds me accountable, I just cannot let it control how I feel about myself.

So this week will probably be a little tougher. My calorie goal is lower since I have lost over 10 pounds and there is a holiday in there. I have been asked to bring dessert to the cookout on the fourth. I think I will make two. One dessert that is something they expect and are hoping for, and one dessert that I can enjoy without having to save all my calories for.